How are the windows darker now. I have lost my love. Our Spring has turned to frozen, cracked, patches of bare ground. Gone is the green grass. No flower grows on this hill anymore, for you have gone. There is a glimmer of a candle that I see. Brighter now, flickering. Shadows of who we were, in photographs and memories.
I lost my husband to Alcoholic Cardiomyopathy, End stage Copd, cirrhosis, and lung cancer that had spread from throat cancer he had in 2008. He just passed away Feb. 4, 2016.
This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through. No amount of pleading, praying, crying could reach him. Maybe he couldn't stop. Couldn't beat addiction. My heart feels like it's going to explode sometimes, and there is nobody to talk to about this. I need this community, both to share our story, and to let someone else know they aren't alone.
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