Ah, the holidays.
Halls, houses, and lawns are decked with festive decorations. Kitchens are filled with delightful, savory aromas. The air is laced with laughter, familiar music, and the tinkling of Salvation Army bells.
The holiday spirit is everywhere.
The holidays can be a very difficult time for those who are grieving. Many bereaved have difficulty understanding and managing their grieving process. This may be because the holidays are a reminder of the people who should be at the holiday table, but are not. Their absence remains, even as the years pass.
Holidays don't have to suck
It has taken me a about few years to get this, but I finally do. For me, it was about not being with my family. I moved my entire life to Florida to begin a new life with Pete. We made our own traditions, and I also continued some of his.
As of today I've been on a scary, horrible rollercoaster ride that I never wanted to ride for 3 years. I've physically exhausted myself just going through the motions of life just trying to burry this pain I feel everyday and this weight of the universe on my shoulders.... Its all so heavy. Today I am sad.