I wouldnt ever believe where I am today
I wont look back n live in yesterday
There is a path we choose
whether we win or loose
remember the choice is up to you
as I get older and realize what's true
is that no one or nothing would know what to do
i have climbed mountains, I've conquered fears
chasing after dreams as wiping away the tears
To The Distant Shore of Lake Grief
#8… After observing a fisherman launch a second stick of dynamite into the lake, the game warden started his engine and shot across the water to make the arrest. “He yelled on his bullhorn, “Stay where you are. I am a conservation officer, and you are under arrest.”
The season has ended. Blossoms of purples and whites fill my sight. I pass through the fields of heather and look beyond the sea. A peacefulness settles in the misty dew surrounding my body and filling my senses. I am with someone. A beautiful feeling of pure and abundant love emanates sparkles of light that reach deep within my soul. It is my son. He reaches for my hand and helps me up.
emotions are meant to be felt.
so why is it so hard to feel them?
why is my first reaction always: "find a way to shut them up."
even happiness is difficult for me.
I realize I'm feeling happy and *boom,* I'm doing something that will surely push that happiness away
who really wants to grieve?
I never expected to make a documentary film about my family. I didn’t think of myself as someone who had a story to tell. My sister had died when I was ten years old and by that time her illness seemed pretty normal to me. Aimee was diagnosed with leukemia when I was two years old, so I grew up always knowing my older sister was sick. One of my earliest memories is