A LOSS, THE GRIEF, AND WHAT IS RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU

 

Loss and disappointment are real. It doesn't matter how big or small it is. It doesn't matter what or whom it is. It shows no prejudice - we will all experience it at some point in our lives...The sadness and grief that comes with it are VERY real and if you never acknowledge it, nor allow yourself to really feel it, it will NEVER get out of your way!

7 Years Without a Mom

She died when I was 25.

Barely able to support myself but trying so hard. Riddled with emotional turmoil from a childhood of ups and downs. Now, at 25, without a mother, I dropped deep into grief. I stayed there for a long time.

My mother was a complicated figure in my life. She was a source of many things. Both comfort and pain. And I the same for her, she once said. 

Daddy

 

I never bought flowers for your grave.
I visited once or twice but the stones felt cold
and you weren't there.
Instead I found you in your old garden
where you used to dig
And I placed seeds in the ground
and patted them down
like you once showed me how to do.
I sat back and watched your ghost
swaying, laughing, living
where the flowers grow free in the wild.