Aftermath

I sit in your chair, Look out at your view

Trying to feel, a small part of you

I hold your ball cap up to my face

Sniffing hard inhaling the trace

Of the smell that remains,

I’m afraid it will fade.

I remember the love deep in the night

But also the pain when things weren’t quite right

You were not perfect Lord, neither was I

Together we managed most of the time

Oh! You could get angry, yell like a champ

Your eyes all icy,  your  face red and damp.

I knew where it came from, that childhood abuse

I just  loved you through it, tried keeping it loose.

But oh God the joy when I made you glad

The absolute best times we ever had.

On shipboard you shone, how you loved to cruise

The pampering, the ports, the many places to snooze.

The Pinnacle Grill was your favorite place

To relax for a night , really stuffing your face.

You had your faults, I have them too

Together we managed to have quite a few.

The laughter that glued us was ours from the start

What kept us together and bound our two hearts.

Our love for adventure, travel and friends

Are the things that sustain me now it’s all at an end.

The things I remember, the laughter we shared

And the way when it mattered,  you always were there.