First year you are gone

What's on my mind? I have 8 days to write a letter, face the pain and send the letter and the pain to heaven..
It's almost a year and I made my self a promise.
I was definitely daddy's lil girl
From the time I was two
I remember I used to put on his shoes
I remember going to the city
Riding the LIRR
I was going to work with dad
Answering the phones and making sales cards
I loved those days I was young and free
I love my memories of you and me
I am so grateful and miss you
I was sad to see you go
This too will reveal itself
And see the end of the show
The next chapter in my life
The new start I must begin
Let it all out hold nothing in
Face the pain face the fact
Unfortunately you are not coming back
That alone makes me so sad
You were the one to make me glad
You were the one to make me smile
Now that you are gone, so smile once in a while
That's why I must write this letter
And send it straight to you
I hope you receive it and know it's true
I know all you ever wanted was for me to never feel blue
I remember talking to you about an issue
You said one day you will look back and laugh
Thank you Daddy for all the days I got to have my dad
All the memories that we have
Forever in my heart, forever and a day
I will always love you daddy and in my heart is where you will stay....

About the Author
.I am a white female 47 years old and suffer from depression and anxiety. I have had three right hip replacements due to infection at 18 months old I just had my world turn upside having my dad pass away 8/9/2015 He called me at 8 pm we said we love each other n that was my last Time I spoke to him... I love to write poetry and advice for the grieving
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