This has been a trip

almost 16 months ago my world came crashing down. You were one day gone the next. At first it was all I could do just to get the the day. I was alone two younge girls by my siide. No husband, no dad no helper no idea what todo. 

Days turned to weeks, weeks to months time went by slow at first. I cried every day. Lost could not figer out my. I stayed strong as I as i could not for me but them .I was alone doung the hardest  job raising are girls. Doing the best I can I help them get the there pain.   

I seeing a little better now not crying as much. Shore this is hard. I figered out with time I can do it alnoe. I miss you every day. But it gets easyer as time gets longer. Just rember I loved you in my way.  I am not going to give in or give up. Just go on. 

One day I stoped crying all the time the light came back not as bright but there. Mabe it learning I am stronger then I thoght or just learn to live with it. Shore I have my day that are harder then others. Shore I feel like my leggs might give out from the pain but I learning to just deal with it. 

Maybe one day I fell like my self again but for now I just am glade I can feel. 

Still fell like I am dreaming and would love to awake. Rember love you always Mark miss you too. Trust I can do this some how. Get these girls the it all.