Heartbroken

Why is it that one can have so many people that love and care about her and yet still feel so empty inside and so alone in this world?! She puts on a brave face daily trying with all her might to keep it together, why?! When in reality all she wants to do is shut down and not have to worry about anything or anybody! She does so because that seems to be whats expected of her, people think she is a strong person, which at one time she may have been, but is not so much anymore. So in turn she lays awake at night trying to make sense of whats happened and continues to question why?! She is shattered inside, lost and alone in her thoughts and memories of what once was, and of what should have been....her heart, soul and mind twist with pain and longing of what is no more. She watches as others lives go on around her, and she is heartbroken and angry inside....is this selfish, some would say it is, but this is how she feels, so she will continue to push most of her thoughts and feelings deep down and wear that brave mask, when truly she is slowly dieing inside....