If I'd Only Known......

                                       If I'd Only Known......

If I'd only known, would I have even talked to you at work...
If I'd only known, would I have made sure I took my breaks when you did...
If I'd only known, would I have "happened" to go by your other job and "accidentally" seen you outside...
If I'd only known, would I have snuck kisses in an empty room at work with you....
If I'd only known, would I have started dating you at all...
If I'd only known, would I have fallen in love with you...
If I'd only known, would I have given you all of me and accepted all of you...
If I'd only known, would I have devoted my everything to you in marriage...
If I'd only known, would I have joined you through baptism into God's family...
If I'd only known, would I have gone through hell and back on our journey through life...
If I'd only known, would I have loved you unconditionally as you were diagnosed with cancer...
If I'd only known, would I have stayed by your side as you battled that horrible disease...
If I'd only known, would I have been there with you through the chemo and remission, the roller coaster we found ourselves on, even though we didn't
choose to be...
If I'd only known, would I have given you all my love and support as we ventured into unknown territory together...
If I'd only known, would I have held you even closer as we were given a limit to our time together...
If I'd only known, would I have tried to ingrain your smile, your feel, the warmth of your skin, your eyes, your smell, your voice, and every part of you into my body and mind to last forever...
If I'd only known, would I have kept by your side, dropping tears onto your pillow as I held your hand , telling you how much I love you....
If I'd only known, would I have felt my heart shatter as I watched you take your last breath and take God's hand...
If I'd only known, would I have died, piece by piece and day by day without you...