Manna Peace

MANNA PEACE

So what is the difference between grieving with God and grieving without God you may ask? 

“It still hurts just as much!!! And I’m angry at Him for allowing this.”

Yes, it does still hurt.  It hurts like crazy!!  There is no miracle that takes away that pain, but this I will say from my personal experience:

God offers a peace that surpasses all understanding and that is not an empty promise.  Yes, I find myself overwhelmed at times.  I feel I simply cannot endure another minute of this pain of loss, the longing, the missing, the emptiness that no-one else can fill – I daresay not even God when I need who I lost and want no-one else, BUT each and every time when I have hit absolute bottom of my endurance I have found God there.

He renews my strength at the bottom of the pit. He binds my wounds, picks me up and holds me close.  There is no human substitute for the peace and calm our Lord brings. But we have to be open to receive it.  We have to seek Him in the dark.  He is there waiting.

God is not going to force Himself on us.  The peace is there for the accepting. And you know what?  It doesn’t last.  I don’t think it’s meant to.  I refer to it as my “manna peace”.

I will lose myself in grief again and slowly sink to the bottom – and He will be there waiting for me to give me fresh manna.  It keeps me connected to Him; it keeps me close; it keeps my eyes on Him.

I dare you: Trust God and cling to Him. Bring all your questions and feelings honestly to Him. Appeal to Him; cry to Him; yell at Him – He can take it and He knows your mind and heart anyway; confess to Him, and then lean against Him.

Who better to have on your side than the One who created you; the One who knows you more intimately than anyone else? If you truly trust in God, He is going to come through for you because He loves you so much. At least give Him the opportunity to prove Himself.

He is the only one who will never let me down. He promised never to leave you or forsake you. He did not forsake you when you lost your loved one.  He did not bring this pain on you to test you or hurt you, but you have to trust His sovereign reason which only He knows.  Besides, will knowing why make it hurt any less?  There is no explanation that will satisfy any of us anyway which we will not counter. 

Know that God has already done everything to ensure we are reunited with our loved ones for eternity.  Bought at the most expensive cost – the cruel sacrifice of His own Son.  He knows loss – He knows you.  He wants to comfort you while you wait for that glorious day when He can reunite you with your loved one and finally wipe away all the tears from your eyes.