More weeks have past
Since I last saw your face.
Still at home
All I do is ....pace.
My biggest challenge
Is getting through a day
Every moment I think of you
I just want to say.
Thursdays are hard
I feel the countdown begin
To when I loose you
All over again.
How do I cope
When celebrations are to be had?
How do I smile
When I feel bad?
How are we to be normal
And do what we did?
How do we do anything
Now without our kid?
I beg for signs
How to make it through?
After lots of crying
And thinking of you.
Thank you dear son
For sending me one.
Giving me strength...
I miss you a TON!
Alex Rodriguez is a wife and mother of 3 boys and life long resident of Mill Valley, CA.
She lost her 2nd born son Steven (19) to a very rare brain cancer on 10/17/13. One of 30 documented of adult AT/RT. One of 5 documented cases side effects of chemotherapy called neutropenic gastritis. He was diagnosed May 15, 2013. After suffering uncontrolled headaches for a period of a few weeks and being misdiagnosed as - Wisdom Teeth, Whip lash, dehydration, Poor Diet, and being told by a doctor after doing a neurology exam (sans CT/MRI) "Good news is you don't have a brain tumor".. It was found that he indeed did have a 7cm brain tumor located on his right frontal lobe. After Emergency Craniotomy partial resection , and 121 Days of Inpatient Care of aggressive Chemotherapy ( exploding his tumor) and radiation- his hard fought battle was lost. But not without displaying courage and positiveness and a thirst for life. He was Given 2 options to return home if he had enough.. he continued to fight and would never give up .. as in his words - Even though it "sucked" …he was happy to just be alive. This is my journey as a grieving mother. Steven is survived by Alex, his father, Rafael and 2 brothers Michael (22) and Matthew (13)
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