Searching for Thoughts

The thoughts and visions are present, more now than ever. I wondered why the mind decided not to think or remember them. Now I fully understand, it must be a protector because as sure as I start Thinking...tears are present.  Life just isn't the same.  I often wonder if you had these feelings. But as time passes it still hurts and I find few that truly understand.  

Such a Impact that you left behind, and there are days I search for things to remind me of you. Nothing is the same, and it never will be. I find myself thinking more of you and talking less.The sudden impact totally shakes anywhere from ten to twenty people. I find that I understand feel and hurt for the many that have such a void in there hearts.  It's days like today thst just make it feel as if it's just not real. I am saddened by the growing number lost to suicide.  Our work is not complete the message has to reach others, until then i carry you in my heart.