Silent rides......

Silent rides and tear filled eyes,
For answers why I look to the skies.
Memories paint bright cheerful pictures,
But the pain lingers like a cemented fixture.
I carry you within my heart,
Like a mosaic window you were a piece of art,
My thoughts of you play in my head like a movie,
Your were a product of love a true vision of beauty.
Tiny fingers and little toes,
My true pain no one knows.
I live this life that is my new "Norm".
But the nightmares and bad thoughts are like bee's and my head they swarm.
I guess I'll never know the answers why,
But the worst is that silent ride with tear filled eyes..........