The Joy of Her Father

I'm a stay at home Mom. I have a 5 year old son named Elijah and a 6 year old daughter named Abigayle. My husband and I tried for four years to have a baby. It was October 9,2006 when I just knew the test would be positive. After some prodding to my skeptical husband, we bought a home pregnancy test and sure enough, it was positive ! We were so happy. Then when I was 21 weeks into my pregnancy we learned it was a girl. His side of the family is all boys so the news made us even happier. Nine days later everything changed. I had severe pains most of the day and through the night. We went to the E.R at two a.m and they rushed me to the maternity ward. When the nurse checked my cervix she told us that I was dialated to ten. My wonderful Dr. did everything he could think of to prevent me from going into labor. He put a cerclage in (sewed my cervix shut) and I layed in a hospital bed almost upside down for four days. On the fourth day at five a.m I coughed and my water broke. At this point nothing could be done to stop labor. So at 2:47 p.m on May 10,2007 I gave birth to a beautiful little girl. Her skin was so transpaent I actually watched her little heart stop beating 27 minutes later. I was completely devastated. I became sevearly depressed. Then just five months later I found out I was pregnant again. Thank God I had a good Dr. When I got to 12 weeks he put in another cerclage. If he hadn't done that I would of lost my little boy the following month. It was a long 9 months of bed rest but it was worth it. Elijah was born on 6/9/08. Healthy as could be. It has taken me this long to let this all out without crying. I love both of my children and I hate it when people say things like "be grateful for what you have" or "at least you have one with you". But I'm learning to live again and accepting the fact that I can not undo what has been done.