Viscious Cycle

Like a switch we are on and off,
Like a nightmare it doesn't stop.
I love you I hate you I'm so confused,
I feel neglected like I'm being used.
You yell you curse you treat me bad,
Scared, upset but mostly sad.
I keep my mouth shut but it's not enough,
I threatened to leave but it's just a bluff.
I wish I could walk away,
Goodbye for good I wish I could say.
Happily ever after what a joke,
A made up lie one big hoax.
Hot and cold this relationship turns,
The pain and hurt start to burn.
My heart is now a cold block of ice,
You fooled me once but never twice.
You blame me and that's ok,
There isn't any need for an explanation save your words there's nothing left to say.
This is nothing new it's become the norm,
No sunny days always just the storm.
Who am I trying to fool,
On my own eyes I try to pull the wool.
I'm a person too not just a toy,
I'm a woman and you are still just a boy.
A piece of you I protect within,
No bit of you will ever harm him.
I will love him protect him and teach him right and wrong,
Not like you he will be kind and strong.
He won't hurt people because he's mad,
I hope he's nothing like his so called dad.
You're a coward a liar and a big bully,
I wish I could leave you and hate you fully.
But to hate you is to hate him,
He is not the problem you were my sin.
A vicious cycle is this thing,
I wish I never said yes and put on that ring.