Since You Left

Since you left,

I feel so alone;

It's hard to think.

I'm so numb and dazed;

It always seems to be

One of those days.

 

Since you left,  

You consume

my thoughts

My stomach

constantly in knots.

I relive the days,

Of your passing. 

 

Since you left, 

I have experienced

pain and sadness

I never thought possible. 

I break into tears

without warning;

Never has there been

such a longing .

 

Since you left, 

It's often difficult

to breathe

And I can't see 

how to proceed. 

 

Since you left, 

Everything

Reminds

Me of 

You. 

 

About the Author
Alex Rodriguez is a wife and mother of 3 boys and life long resident of Mill Valley, CA. She lost her 2nd born son Steven (19) to a very rare brain cancer on 10/17/13. One of 30 documented of adult AT/RT. One of 5 documented cases side effects of chemotherapy called neutropenic gastritis. He was diagnosed May 15, 2013. After suffering uncontrolled headaches for a period of a few weeks and being misdiagnosed as - Wisdom Teeth, Whip lash, dehydration, Poor Diet, and being told by a doctor after doing a neurology exam (sans CT/MRI) "Good news is you don't have a brain tumor".. It was found that he indeed did have a 7cm brain tumor located on his right frontal lobe. After Emergency Craniotomy partial resection , and 121 Days of Inpatient Care of aggressive Chemotherapy ( exploding his tumor) and radiation- his hard fought battle was lost. But not without displaying courage and positiveness and a thirst for life. He was Given 2 options to return home if he had enough.. he continued to fight and would never give up .. as in his words - Even though it "sucked" …he was happy to just be alive. This is my journey as a grieving mother. Steven is survived by Alex, his father, Rafael and 2 brothers Michael (22) and Matthew (13)
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