Gone and not forgotten

It's almost a year now

i can't believe your gone

it feels like a nightmare

when I repeat to myself

that you are no longer here

it feels like your away

and I'm waiting for you to come back

which I know is not good or healthy

its not the truth or reality

That you are coming back..Yout aren't coming back

I am grateful at least I got to say goodbye

without even knowing it was the day that you died

I didn't say goodbye but I did say I love You

it breaks my heart that you are no longer here

it brings me back to reality that there is nothing to fear

they say you are in a better place and I don't know where

and I don't know why? I do know it makes me cry...

I pray everyday for the pain to go away and to deal with this the best I can

After one year, I will start a new path for the journey that lays ahead

get negative thoughts, people, and places they must get out of my head

so I can move forward to the best of my ability

love myself and my hubby is along for the ride

Mike keeps me balanced just like yin and yang

after the mark of a year that my dad is no longer here,

he was a great man, a wonderful father, and my best friend

i miss him so much I always will keep him close to my heart

I don't know if ill ever be able to accept my dad is no more longer here

i hope to be in a better place for the next year....

I write this poem from my heart

it also helps me get a fresh start

I must fight to go on and if I want to be me

I must move forward to keep what I want to be

but live my life 

Not in chains, but free

free of harm, hurt or cry

I was told I was that diamond in the sky