The Illusion of control

It was quite an adjustment for me to make

in fact it's still in progress

coming to the realization that we hold life too tightly

both people and times

when you reach the age I am

you will have lost more than you hold

no matter how tightly

it was simply their turn

no other explanation will fit

abandon rhyme or reason

it has no place anymore

abandon what you believe

if it doesn't line up with reality

they can be full of days or a child

but the end is just as sure

impersonal and quick

even if they lingered

and we think we were expecting it

death comes and goes in its own time

and by the time we know it has visited

it is finished

and hurrying off to its next appointment

try not to take it personally

as crazy as it sounds

It was never about us

and it was never about them

if there is a center to the universe

it apparently isn't man

 

About the Author
I was born in 1957 as one of 6 kids. It was a great childhood, we were a close family and those of us who remain still are. I met the love of my life in 1975, she was my first girlfriend and my last. we were married in 1977 and remained happily so until her sudden death in 2014. I've always written to her, and she to me. Even after her loss I still write for her even though I don't know if she sees
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