Clinging to Faith

Reaching and clinging to Faith, as the anniversary date approaches. What can be said? It still feels the same and if possible it gets harder. Leaving the pain to rise with in me. How does one go forward when the heart feels like it's ripping inside. Time should allow the hurt to be felt less, but how do you ger past a day that almost makes you feel as your choking.

Each night, I pray and I ask for you to rest in peace and send me signs. It's evident there are so many ways I've felt as if you were near. 

However Faith rises above all and covers tte surface and the burning pain. Creating a comfort in a moment of feeling broken or sadness. I look for those signs of faith that draw me near and allow me to feel you calling out to me or pointing at a sign, that then cradles and comforts my heart.Reminding me, that even when I feel weak and tired i am being lifted and cradled in my own Faith. 

Though time seperate us, we will see each other once again until then more work must be done.