See Me

I hate that moment when

Someone says how they admire

How strong I am…

Why can’t they see?

This is just a stupid game

And I have got you fooled.

I am not this strong person

You all think I am.

Why can’t you see that I am in pain?

Why, of why, can’t you take

A moment and really see me?

I am fragile,

I am broken,

I need your hand!

I am screaming inside,

Help me! Hold me! Hear me!

SEE ME!

But you close your eyes to me,

Because the pain is more

Thank you care to acknowledge.

Like somehow,

I might rub off on you,

Like a sickness.

Oh how I long to come out of this silence.

To be free and whole again.

But that isn’t to be.

And one day, one sad day,

You will need me.

Maybe then you will

See me…

About the Author
My name is Nicki. My husband, Bryan, was hit by a drunk driver on March 27, 2013. He was life flighted to the hospital. The next day I was told there was no hope of him recovering from his injuries. I have lost my Dad and Grandfather, but nothing has ever come close to the pain that I feel since his accident. Every day became a struggle with no hope for relief from the pain. I started writing about Bryan and this new life without him and found some comfort and hope to give comfort to others.
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