BEHIND A SMILE

BEHIND A SMILE

Someone asked me...

Just today...

How I am doing

Since he went away

I said I'm okay...

That I'm doing just fine..

That I'm holding up well...

And time is flying by

She said I really look good..

And how strong I must be...

How I pulled it together...

She was real proud of me

I didn't let on...

There was no way she could see

All the pain and the sorrow....

I hold inside of me

We laughed for a bit...

I put on a smile...

Made lots of small talk...

And all the while

I was silently crying...

For missing him so...

I was screaming inside...

I wished he didn't go

But I didn't let on...

My grief I hid...

Behind a smile...

Yes, that's what I did

We said our goodbyes...

And we parted ways...

I took a deep breath...

Thought back on that day

I felt my eyes swelling...

I blinked the tears away...

I have to keep going...

God help me I pray

I'll be with him soon...

Though I don't know when...

I just have to believe...

I will see him again

Another deep breath..

Put the smile back on...

Just get through the day...

That is who I've become

By Gwendy Vanucci