My heart aches with loneliness in a room full of people
I cover up my pain with smiles and jokes
Tears run down my face in the darkness of my soul
My voice screams silent screams to hold you again
People say they understand but they can't and wont
Oh Sweet Child of Mine, Please don’t be sad
Since I walk in Heaven’s light
For It truly was my time to go
And I keep you in my sight
I Gave you life’s foundation
and my legacy shines clear
So don’t forget to live for me
I haven’t left you, I’m right here
I see you as you stumble
and sometimes you even fall
When I was a senior in high school, just 6 short years ago, my mother was diagnosed with cancer and passed away just a couple of months later. She was an incredible woman and her death was a devastating loss for our community and my family.
Remind me, when the sun warms my cold bones, that life has not always been this way. Let its warmth show me that once, the cold did not reach so deeply. Let the wind whisper in my ear of better days, happier times, least I forget. Have the colors of the rainbow shoot far into the sky and brighten a grey, empty world least I forget the true colors of life.
Saying goodbye….
Feb. 10th 1988 I said good-bye to my father I was 16. Today on my birthday I turn the same age my father was when he was murdered 44 years young.
Today is also my Mother's birthday, I was born on her birthday August 17. My mother would be 69 today but she passed away at the early age of 47.
Since you've been gone
I keep thinking you're coming back.
I waited, day and night
But you never came.
Now...I am so torn...
We should have grown old together
There is not one single person that I have talked to who does not feel guilt. The degrees of guilt are different of course, but it seems everyone has it. I had it for a long time after Tim died. Had I listened closer, done something different, spoke the right words, opened my eyes, sensed the impending doom... something, anything. Guilt has a long long list.
