Dreams of loved ones.

For me, it was the loss of life of my loved one especially my son Charlie at age 23 in 2009.

I tried to be strong, but after losing Charlie my body had all it could tolerant, my heart starting racing as much as my mind.

What just happened? How could this happen to us? Why didn't Charlie fight harder to survive?

It’s said to be one of the worst things that can happen to a person: experiencing the death of a child.

It’s said to be one of the worst things that can happen to a person: experiencing the death of a child.

There’s a story behind each child lost. My unhappy journey began in 2009, when my oldest son Charlie, 23, died of pneumonia.

What Now?

What do I do now? - It's like you're on a vacation, I do not feel like you are gone, forever. It breaks my heart to even want to think about it but the reality is you are gone and you are gone forever. I cannot begin to picture my life without you. What hurts the most as there was no warning..just a phone call at six am telling me you were dead.

RELEASING THE PAIN, BIT-BY-BIT

Wayne lived out in the country. Walking into his house was like entering a cave. The curtains were closed, the lights off.

Wayne sat in his recliner, staring at the wall. Neither of us said anything for several minutes.

Finally, Wayne began to shake. His face contorted as if in pain. His eyes were red from lack of sleep.

“I miss her so much,” he stammered.