My heart and soul is made up of four part's,each child of mine hold's a peice in their heart!And with this bond we'll never be apart!When I see other mommies with their son's a tear fall's down my cheek,my heart aching so bad I feel like I'm dying inside and slowley growing weak.Everybody say's "you hold him in your heart"but for me it's easier said then done to do that part!But these words are
The tears fall freely on my face tonight
My grief has to be seen
A journey full of heartbreak,
And it all seems like a dream.
When we think about our hearts, we see this muscle full of blood that resides within our chest. At the loss of someone we love, we wonder how it is that this tiny organ does not burst from our body to lay shatter, with our lives, upon the stone. The pain, so unimaginable, engulfs us, yet our hearts still beat. How is that possible?
Things I have learned about Grief
It's that time of year. People are suppose to be joyous, thankful and full of kindness. Me? I want to throw the remote through the T.V, slap the grins off some smug faces and in general, skip this time of year. Skipping it won't save me. After New Years will quickly follow the one year 'anniversary' of Tim's passing. My heart catches at that thought. One year without him?
Cry now if you need to cry
Just know you're not alone
This earth has lost our loved one
As Heaven's become their home
I won't say 'Time's a Healer'
Or 'It'll get better day by day'
It is hard sometimes to climb up from sorrow. We search for any little nugget of light to help us take one more step, survive one more minute. When we can't find it, we fall a little further into the darkness, the distance longer to walk. How deep is this well of despair? Endless are the tears shed, the ache, the loss.
Cancer is such a funny word. A word that brings so much fear, yet such a widely known disease. It is a disease that does not care about your age, if you have small children, if you have yet to walk your daughter down the aisle or how much money you have in the bank. I never realized this word would ever be a part of my vocabulary, much
I lost my husband (her dad) in jan26,2008. On oct 08,2014 I lost our only child. My only child. She was only 14. This is the impossible, a parents worst nightmare. I just want to wake up,and it be a bad dream. Losing my husband of 9 years was hard,but loosing my only child is killing me inside. I don't know how to work this site.
I will let you know that I'm not gone
Sending you signs from Heaven above
But you must always be watchful
And remember those things 'I loved'
Maybe a tune on the radio
