One More.....

  • One more day to see your smile
  • One more day to hear your voice
  • One more day to say I love you
  • One more day to hear you say it back
  • One more day to kiss your lips
  • One more day to give you hugs
  • I wish for one more day but I'm not sure one more day would be enough....http://thegrie

THE JOURNEY part 5

The first year after Bobs death is a blur, so many firsts.  The second year was worse then the first as the reality of life without Bob set in completely.   I started dating way too soon.  I have made many mistakes but hopefully i have learned the lesson in it all.  Dating for a widow is fraught with many dangers, One being inexperience.   Most do not talk abo

The Journey Part 4

October 6,2011… My husband is in his hospice bed in OUR room.    I knew time was short,  he spends much of his time in a altered state.  He is seeing things I cant see.   I wonder if he is seeing old friends  and  relatives that have already passed.   I ask God  to  let me know when his momen

The Journey part 3

The day my husband told me he was ready to go sent my mind to days gone by. I remember how I felt as we took our vows and danced at our reception. Bob could not dance so we went in circles, but I did not care I was in his arms and looking forward to a life with my husband.


Tonight

The moon rises high in the sky

The day has come to an end.

It’s time to dream of you

My thoughts to you I send.

 

My love I miss you dearly

And think of you each day

And wish we were together

In more than just this way.

 

I know you are with me

Watching over me with love

You're now my guardian angel

I am not a Survivor

I read the words 'Survivor of Suicide' 'Survivor of death' alot. I don't consider myself a survivor of anything. Not while I live in the hell of death and loss. I did not survive that night, I died that night. The 'who' I was. I wish I was still that ignorant of what true pain and sorrow is. I wish I was still like others, going on with my life, clueless to what others are suffering.