Losing Logan

 

I want to share my story of Faith after losing Logan: On 12/18/14, at 8:15pm, I got a call from the emergency room stating Logan was there and a large team was working on him. No other info. What?!? I just saw him about an hour ago?!? He snuck out on his bike to go to the store at the end of our street and never made it. He got hit by a neglectful 16 year old driver. I never got to say goodbye and that I loved him, but he knew. Somehow my husband  and I  made it to the hospital only to be told he passed away from a brain injury 15 min earlier. I fell to my knees and cried in pain, agony, and  disbelief. I prayed to God for strength. Literally, in 2 seconds I was calm enough to see him. I am NOT a strong person at all but the strength the Holy Spirit gave me that night has not left me since. When I feel like I'm losing it, I pray & immediately feel calm. Needless to say, Christmas wasn't the same this year but it made my family and I realize it's about Jesus & not material things. I know Logan believed. He confessed his sins and asked Jesus into his heart a few months before and he understood the meaning. I haven't fully accepted his passing but I feel that's God's way of protecting me..easing me into it. I know I'll see Logan again. THAT, God has promised and I believe. God's plan was bigger than I could ever imagine. Logan touched so many people. Friends and strangers tell me they accepted Jesus after Logan passed. Especially teenagers! Maybe that was Logan's purpose in life. God gives me strength, who am I to question. I don't know when I'll see him again..only when God sees fit and I've fulfilled my purpose on Earth. Until then, I'll do everything I can to bring whoever I can to Jesus. If you feel invincible, like Logan did, you're not. He was the strongest guy I know. You never know when your time is up so please be ready at all times.  I'm stil in a state of semi-shock but when reality hits, it Hits! To lose your child (he was also my best friend) is the worst pain imaginable. I just have to believe and trust in God. It must be done to survive, and for strength and comfort. Logan wouldn't want to see me this way, and I don't want to break God's heart. Logan was an All Star Rec baseball player, could fix anything, a free spirit, and a country boy. An all around good guy. But after what he's experienced in Heaven, I would be selfish to ask him back to this evil world. As much as I'd love it, I have to say. We're human. There is a hole in my heart that can never be replaced, but God is good at fixing things too. We love and miss you, Logan, more than ANY words can ever begin to express❤️