Dreams of loved ones.

For me, it was the loss of life of my loved one especially my son Charlie at age 23 in 2009.

I tried to be strong, but after losing Charlie my body had all it could tolerant, my heart starting racing as much as my mind.

What just happened? How could this happen to us? Why didn't Charlie fight harder to survive?

All these questions raced through my mind for months after Charlie funeral.
It was the grief path's I took, they say there are steps in the path through grief:

Mental health professionals distinguish between two types of grief: complicated and uncomplicated. Of course sometimes one can have aspects of both types of grief in the mourning process. In uncomplicated grief, the many normal responses to grief will be present in greater or lesser degrees of severity, and will very likely include a wide range of emotional and physical reactions: anger, sadness, guilt, panic, fear, confusion, loneliness, listlessness, change in appetite, absent-mindedness, sleeplessness, forgetfulness, sudden or rash behavior, a desire to be alone or an increased need for companionship, obsessively thinking about the deceased, and so on. It is understood that these kinds of responses to loss can continue to appear in lessening frequency and severity for as long as two years even a lifetime and still be considered within the range of a normal, 'healthy' grief response.

Did I have any of these symptoms? Yes, I felt anger, sadness, guilt, panic, fear, confusions. There still are days I feel them, but I try my hardest to not dwell on them because I know Charlie would love to see me as the strong Mom writing trying to help others through their grief path.

Writing, I truly believe has helped me cope with my grief through penning a partial fantasy, Of Charlie living in heaven with my parents and grandparents, knowing they live on with no pain, it's a place as real as Earth at least what I have seen in my dreams. I believe, but do you?

Do I believe in life after death?
I sure do, because I believe my dreams are true. Having Faith there is an after- life sustains my heart and wellbeing. My dreams seem so real, upon waking I feel refreshed, knowing Charlie is living on with my family on the other side gives me Courage that all is well, he is at peace. And we here on Earth must live on, to our fullest!

Do you have dreams of your loved ones?

Now take a deep breath, learn to focus on what made you happy when you were a child. My Doctor gave me a few tips maybe they will work for you:

1. Watch comedies, anything to make you laugh.
2. Find your old childhood friends.
3. Go out in the sun, relax.
4. Turn up the music and dance like no one is watching
5. Find an outlet like painting, color in a coloring book, paint a room a bright color.

Find your outlet, there is one but never give up on life!