heartaches

My heart aches with loneliness in a room full of people
I cover up my pain with smiles and jokes
Tears run down my face in the darkness of my soul
My voice screams silent screams to hold you again
People say they understand but they can't and wont
I make them uncomfortable with my sorrow and pain
They try to cheer me, to comfort me, to console me
I cannot be cheered, comforted or consoled
I need to feel my pain to feel the sorrow
To feel my sorrow means that I am still missing and loving you
I don't want to forget you and I will always miss you
I want to tell those that tell me that time will heal all wounds
It won't, it can't, and it never will!