The unspeakable truth

We just bought a new house. It's bigger and better than the one we're living in. Yes, we're thankful and happy. Yet, a part of us is sad. It's always like this since we lost our dad and our youngest sister 5 yrs ago.

When we go on cruises, when we celebrate birthdays and holidays, when we notice the kids are turning into teenagers, when we buy cars, when cousins get married and start a family of their own. All the changes, big and small. All of it makes us happy, and sad at the same time. It's never just happy any more. For we all feel the pain of not having our dad and sister share these wonderful events in our lives.

No one has to discuss it. We just know. We just feel the emptiness. It's the unspeakable truth. We've learned to accept this reality since there's no other way around it. They would have wanted us to be happy, and we are. But we'd rather rent a tiny apartment, stay in the house and not go on any cruises, drive an old beat up car, if it would mean we can all be together again. But no such luck.

So for now, we will make the most of what God has given us. For He knows best. We will love and care for each other as long as we live, until we can be with our dad and sister once again. Then, and only then, will sadness completely go away, and we will truly be happy again.