Guilt

The last time I spoke to my son all seemed well. My son went through periods of depression as well as suffering from anxiety. However, as we all know humans have an ability to be great pretenders. Especially when a person wants others to think all is well in their life. I wonder sometimes if I missed something in our conversation that night.  I have come to realize there was nothing that I could have said or done to change the outcome. The events that unfolded a couple of weeks later were completely out of my control. Yet, as any suicide survivor can tell you there are always those lingering doubts and survivors guilt.