I wonder

I wonder if he looked back.

I wonder if he cried.

I wonder if he prolonged his stay with uncertainty. 

I wonder did he wave goodbye.

I wonder if he smiled at the sight of his angels.

I wonder if his parents welcomed him to paradise. 

I wonder if he knew how much I loved him.

I wonder if he knows how much I miss him.

About the Author

I am a mother to teenage boys, happily married to a man that has been with me through so much and by my side through it all. My father passed away 10/07/14 a day that has forever changed me and my family. This my grief journey, I have always almost written him poems whether it be for his birthdays, father's day or just to write him a little something, the most important poem written for my dad was the poem that was to be used in his memorial. These are writings that help me through a certain day, maybe after hearing a certain song that brings back memories or seeing his favorite snack down the chip aisle, stirring up emotion that I try to block.I will forever be his daughter.

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