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jijm13 December 31, 2014 - 8:19pm

If I would've known this was to be our last year together I would've visited you more.

If I would've known those were our last holidays with you maybe I would've slowed down, and lived in that moment more. 

If I would've known that would be the last father's day with you I would've held you longer. 

If I could've known this would be your last birthday to be celebrated with you here I would've made that day last a little longer. I cherished every minute of every day with you. If I would've known that was our last embrace I would've held you tighter. If that morning when i awoke i knew that was your last morning with us I would've stayed by your side. If i could've known that this was your last year with us would I have really wanted to know.  If my embrace could've kept you here, I would have never let you go.

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I am a mother to teenage boys, happily married to a man that has been with me through so much and by my side through it all. My father passed away 10/07/14 a day that has forever changed me and my family. This my grief journey, I have always almost written him poems whether it be for his birthdays, father's day or just to write him a little something, the most important poem written for my dad was the poem that was to be used in his memorial. These are writings that help me through a certain day, maybe after hearing a certain song that brings back memories or seeing his favorite snack down the chip aisle, stirring up emotion that I try to block.I will forever be his daughter.

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