BELIEVE

Where are you?
Where are you now?
If not here, then where?
Can I find you?
Can I feel you?
Can I see you?

Are you in my heart,
or in my head?
Are you ‘on the other side’,
or can you even be found?
Did you believe in Heaven
and find your way home?
Why, oh why,
did you leave me, my son?

The day you died,
I thought I would die too.
I definitely believed I wanted to.
But then something awakened
deep down inside,
and with the clarity that only 
God can provide,
I knew I could find you,
I knew that I would!

So the seeker in me searched
high and low.
In books and through psychics,
in workshops and classes,
in dreams and through tears...
So many tears.

I felt you draw nearer,
and I even heard your voice.
Call out to me loudly, 
with determination and force.
MOM!
I knew at that moment
that our journey had begun.
I knew I could still have 
a relationship
with my son.

Over the years,
as my grief subsided
(just a bit)
I came to understand
the how’s, why’s and what if’s.
Not wanting me to waste the life I have left,
you helped me move beyond
the pain of your death.

My heart still aches for you 
and I will never let you go.
But I know now that it was
all a part of our plan.
Together we will endure,
there is much work to do.
Our journey is never ending
and I know one thing for sure.

I found you, my son!

You are here.
You are there.
You are everywhere.
You are the wind and the trees.
You are the sky and the clouds.
You are the birds chirping.
You are the chimes singing.
You are the sun in my face and
You are the wind at my back.

You send me ladybugs and
oh, so many signs,
to remind me of
your never-ending love.
You give me hope.
You give me peace.
You give me understanding
and joy.
You give me all of this, 
and so much more.

You give me the most amazing hugs!
We dance!
We laugh!
And sometimes, yes, 
we cry.
But I know you are with me now
all of the time.
Loving me, guiding me,
Always reminding me.

A new relationship was born
between mother and son.
Different, for sure,
but still just as real!
It’s mine, 
It’s ours.
And it’s meant to be shared.

What is death,
really?
Their body is gone,
but our loved ones are still here.
Because it’s their Spirit
that never dies,
that never leaves us behind!

So open your hearts, 
open your minds. 
Just a tiny bit...
and then...
Prepare to launch 
on a most fascinating ride!

You and your loved one,
together still.
Now and forever,
your relationship is real!

One heart, one love.
Healing and growing.
Walking side by side.
With gratitude
and in deep awe,
of the miracles of life,
the miracles of Spirit!

Releasing our paradigms 
about death and dying,
We come to understand 
our Purpose and our Self.

We realize how very blessed we are,
in spite of our grief,
YES, even because of it!
For me, for mankind,
for all people who grieve,
We have just one word....
BELIEVE!
BELIEVE!