Suffering As A Seed

We should not be too quick to abandon suffering,
lest we miss its savage blessing.
Every ending is a chance to grow stronger
in longing for what was lost.
Inside the truth of our most painful experiences
we find the seeds of new beginnings.
It is never too late
to forgive, to learn, to grow

Almost a year

The little moments in time

you will look back to find

that those memories are all you know

that those memories will make it show

How hard it is to deal with death

no matter what happened or who left

our hearts feel the pain

it just isn't the same

Time isnt the answer or the way to deal with this 

you have to grieve at your own risk

Memories of my dad

The phone rang it was 8pm and it was my dad.He said do not worry I am ok I will be home in about an hour, he said I love you and I said I love you too. That was going to be the last time I saw him. The phone rang at 10:30 my husband picked up the phone and When he hung up, my husband said do u trust me?

Hoping and Coping

I close my eyes and see your face

it is something that could never be erased

It is something that can never be replaced

We had such a good relationship 

Father and Daughter team

we knew when one of us 

wasnt okay

we were that close

we felt each others pain

game over now that you are gone 

i am supposed to carry on