To love again?

So much confusion

    I don't know where to turn.

I once had a love

    who now resides in Heaven.

I thought,

    "I don't want to give my heart again

        and go through this deep agonzing pain."

But, then

     there is the intense loneliness.

The craving for a human touch

     another human voice.

        Someone to share life with again.

It does not mean I don't love my lost one any less,

     it is just a lonely road to walk down

         with only myself for company.

Is it wrong to feel this?

     Would my loved one understand?

So much turmoil....