A New Day Dawns

With the passing of my husband last year, I found myself in a whirlwind of emotions that changed from day to day, sometimes hour to hour. My husband’s promotion to heaven was not unexpected and in some respects I had been prepared―but not near as prepared as I thought. After fifty years of marriage and ministry together, it was a wrench to the spirit and soul to be separated. We loved each other dearly and his love for me displayed a deep concern for my future. Thank God, I had developed a faith in His Word to stand on, enabling me to move on. Daily I processed the pain, even groaning in my spirit and crying out for His help and comfort. I knew deep down I had hope for my future. The Lord had not forsaken me and I was to look to Him as my source and keep His Word before me. After all, His Word is life, and I knew the Word would minister to my every need.

A new day dawned in a moment of time. The memories were bitter sweet; l clung to the sweet memories of our life together. The loss was bitter at times, but I chose to cling to the sweetness of the presence of Jesus. The memories of our ministry and travelling to many nations and various cultures, brought peace and comfort to my heart. The fruit of our labors had been rewarded over and over. God is a good God and His goodness continued to be shown to me by special friends from my local church, and from all over the world.

Some days the sense of joy of the Lord would rise up and give me strength, but I learned not to be affected by the lack of joy, it would return as I praised God for His abiding love and grace. God is faithful to watch over His Word to perform it. My new day, my new life is challenging, but I view it as an opportunity to move on with God on my side. Thinking of others, praying for them, and reaching out with help and comfort, took my mind of what I was processing. It was a means of healing each time I did it, and the grief became less painful. My new day is becoming brighter and brighter.