"That Cold Night You Left Me"

“That Cold Night You Left Me”

As days goes by and nights drift in,
I wonder how did your pain begin?
I drift back to that cold and windy night,
Still not believing you gave up the fight.
I know your loving heart was broken,
But didn’t you hear the words I had spoken?
I kept looking for and calling for you,
For deep in my heart I knew.
I went every place I could think of,
Hoping you were feeling my love.
I left you messages and sent you text,
Then I went home wondering, “What next?”
I heard footsteps coming towards my door,
It was just shortly after four.
I said to myself, “You little shit”,
Opened the door and got life’s biggest hit.
At that moment I knew you were here no more,
I remember screaming and pacing the floor.
My soul left that same sad day,
And my life has been nothing but dark and gray.
The long cold days are still here,
Death, I no longer fear.
I miss you both day in and day out,
When I’m alone, your name I shout.
Come back home is all I ask,
Is this really such a hard task?
You left me without saying goodbye,
To understand, I really do try.
I ask if for you I did enough,
People say I am on myself to tough.
I sit and stare at your beautiful face,
Crying for you chose to leave life’s race.
Please come back for one last talk,
Then I will give you my blessings to take that walk.

Love, Hugs and Kisses,
Mom

written for my Son "Nakoa"!
Angela K. Anderson
a.k.a. Nakoa's Mom