The Daily Reminder

Like every other morning I wake up today and for a brief moment in the newness of the day, all seems well.  Then the realization hits again as the fog of my mind clears: the silence, the empty space in bed next to me - I did not wake up next to you and feel the heaviness of an arm draped over me, or our legs intertwined.

That brief and blissful moment of oblivion is instantly replaced by a fist-punch to my core that takes my breath away and constricts my heart.  Innocence and the newness of the day gone and replaced by an indescribable pain and heaviness that I will carry with me all day.  And so it has been every day...and will be again tomorrow: a cruel repetition as certain as the sunrise... Missing you is the hardest part!