New year

I am thankful your suffering has ended.

i am thankful I was able to hold you in my arms as you passed away.

i have learned to accept that you needed to lash out those last six months and trusted my love would be strong enough to withstand the assault.

i am proud of how valiantly you clung to life.

I am proud at your efficiency in closure.

Lastly, I am thankful for you sharing final thoughts with me, even though they were sometimes painful for me to hear.  

I know you did your best, I was strong enough, and you truly gave it the best you had.