D.E.A.T.H. O.F. M.Y. C.H.I.L.D.

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Alex Rodriguez March 11, 2014 - 5:24pm

 

Do you know how often I think of you?

Every  minute of every single day.

Are you here,  walking beside me?

Through this journey, I find it hard to breathe sometimes.

How to continue on living is ... harder than anyone can imagine.

 

Our lives will never be the same. 

Friends and family struggle to know what to do and some have completely gone away. 

 

My heart is broken and my tears seem never ending. 

You were an inspiration to so many, and so very loved. 

 

Cancer stole you from me - and I can't figure out... why you? 

HE seems to think you are needed in heaven. It is not fair - I want you back. 

I have one wish and that is to feel you near me always.

Loving you and being your mother was my biggest honor.

Do you know how much I miss and love you? To the heavens and back again.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Alex Rodriguez is a wife and mother of 3 boys and life long resident of Mill Valley, CA. She lost her 2nd born son Steven (19) to a very rare brain cancer on 10/17/13. One of 30 documented of adult AT/RT. One of 5 documented cases side effects of chemotherapy called neutropenic gastritis. He was diagnosed May 15, 2013. After suffering uncontrolled headaches for a period of a few weeks and being misdiagnosed as - Wisdom Teeth, Whip lash, dehydration, Poor Diet, and being told by a doctor after doing a neurology exam (sans CT/MRI) "Good news is you don't have a brain tumor".. It was found that he indeed did have a 7cm brain tumor located on his right frontal lobe. After Emergency Craniotomy partial resection , and 121 Days of Inpatient Care of aggressive Chemotherapy ( exploding his tumor) and radiation- his hard fought battle was lost. But not without displaying courage and positiveness and a thirst for life. He was Given 2 options to return home if he had enough.. he continued to fight and would never give up .. as in his words - Even though it "sucked" …he was happy to just be alive. This is my journey as a grieving mother. Steven is survived by Alex, his father, Rafael and 2 brothers Michael (22) and Matthew (13)
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