Hold my hand

My daddy died last year 19 of january...

...few weeks after I had the most beautiful dream in my whole life ...

After He left I felt so devastated, confused, guilty, unsecured - I`ve been so scared to start new life without Him - basically I couldn`t come to my senses ... and then ... One night I closed my eyes and He came in my dream ...

...It was completely(!) dark outside, I didn`t know where I am, I couldn`t see anything around and I felt scared, I didn`t know where to go, or which way to turn ... nearly giving up, nearly crying and then ... slowly I started to feel really warm and my heart calm down - I knew I am not alone - I wasn`t sure who is this, but I became extremely exited and step by step I understood my father is somewhere near... 

My daddy was close to me - I felt His breath, but I couldn`t see Him - I just knew it`s my dad...

... then I`ve seen His hand - only His hand was visible

 
Suddenly He held my hand delicately and He leads me into the darkness, but I wasn`t scare any more!

I just walked with Him - I trusted that nothing wrong is going to happen, I completely gave myself away. I was so happy, peaceful and relaxed ...
I knew He is smiling and I wanted keep this moment...