So, I made my Christmas wish today and of course it did not come true. It is impossible to bring you back, the reasonable part of me knows this. But, in 6 days I will make the same wish for New Years. I will wish that when I wake up on January 1st, that it will be 2014 and you will be at the house fixing the traditional pork and sauerkraut.
A poem I wrote called Don't Know
Don't Know if I'm ready to loose you too soon,
This gift I write for you today
is the only one I have.
you cannot unwrap it or give it back.
My hope for this day,
is you know you are remembered in every possible way!
I would load up the presents, Santa would sit you on his knee,
take pictures, have laughter, if only you could be with me.
God has you now, and forever you'll be
We are so often confused by all the advise out there. The cliches, old and new. "Let go of your grief so your loved one can be at peace", "it was meant to be" "he/she cannot contact you or send yoiu signs because your are too caught up in your grief and pain" "you have to live for them now" "it is not good to not go out" "you shouldnt cry so much".
“It’s not like they’re family.”
That was the original title of the book I promised to write. It was the spring of 2006, and I was sitting in the coffeehouse around the corner from my daughter’s school. My friend, Delle, sat across from me, sipping her green tea chai latte.
I'm watching "It's a wonderful life". What a Christmas favorite. Mama, we used to watch it every year. I don't think we watched it last year, because I was too busy. If I'd only known you would be in heaven this year. I feel so far away from my "normal" self. So far away from everything good.
Each Day is a New Day. How you spend every moment of each day, is truly up to you. The Choices that you have are many. The opportunities in each day that you live, are Endless…….
"This is a mini documentary about Sander who, at the age of 6 dies of cancer. Shortly before his death he had a very realistic dream about Heaven and told his mother, Mieke, all about it. Mieke now tells their story in this clip.
This is very comforting for a lot of parents. It is in dutch but subtitled in English.
