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Surrounded by people

And yet all alone. 

Still can't believe

You're so far from home. 

Even though the physical world around us has not changed, we have entered into a time of darkness. The empty space of love leaves little room for anything else. The days are darker, the nights bleak. Colors have faded to little of what our eyes use to see. Darkness without end. It doesn't have to stay that way although to make the effort to change this is beyond our capacities or abilities.

The days don't pass

My arms are empty
My pillow light
No telling what dreams
I'll dream tonight
You have left me hollow
A void to fill
And knowing no one
Ever will
Fill that space 
You left behind
And no one ever
Can ease my mind 
My soul mate, my love
My best friend
Our amazing love
Will never end 

At times the pain is so fresh
I can feel the stabbing through my heart.
Then there are times when
I can breathe normally.

At times I can almost
Smell your cologne. 
Then there are times when
I have a hard time seeing your face.

At times I think
I'll never be happy again. 
Then there are times when
I feel myself smile.

Life's pain can bring a flood of tears, the heart can feel as if it's been torn to pieces. Our minds can feel like it feels like mush. But the Love and lost look we have can seem as if going on seems impossible. The feelings that ground our hearts down can easily find separating from everyone is the answer, but remember someone needs you.

“Through their eyes!”

Shattered out into many pieces of glass. Is what the moment is vivid and deep within our hearts. Even though we cling to Faith and our Belief, we still feel , ache and are shattered. Just as a glass shatters into a million pieces, there is no way to piece it back together. The heart still has that scar ' s and  the pain there is just, no way to fill the missing pieces.

Last month I hiked up the North Fork of Big Pine Creek to a camp at 5th Lake. The camp was located in the Eastern Sierra out of Big Pine, California. I was camping with with my late husband’s extended family (brothers and sisters-in-law, one niece and nephew) and my husband of six months, Larry. The trip marked my extended family’s 25th annual pack trip to the Eastern side of the Sierra.

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