Where you used to be

When you left,                                                                                         

I cried each day,

Still hard to believe

You’ve gone away.

Deep down inside

I know you’re near

I feel you… I hear you

In each falling tear.

The part that hurts

So hard for me

Is not seeing you in the places

You used to be.

An empty bed,

I sit and stare

An extra plate,

Your favorite chair

Your toothbrush stands

Straight in the cup,

Your cologne and hairbrush

I can never give up.

The pen that you used

Every single day,

The clothes that you wore

In the drawer they will stay.

I can picture you still

Right here with me,

In the mirror alone,

Where you used to be.

No more soft kisses

When I leave for the day

No " I love you" calls

In my heart you will stay.

Your clothes and your knick knacks

I have never touched

It's too much to handle

Cause I miss you so much.

I left out the towels

That say HE and SHE

Your razor still sits there

Where you used to be.

In a flash.....Just an INSTANT!

You were gone here from me

A void and an absence

 Where you used to be.

Every room holds a memory

Each day is a fight

As I whisper your name

Before I sleep at night

I am sure that you know it,

 I’m sure you can see

How not having you here,

Is so hard for me.

I still hear you voice

On the answering machine,

And I look for you each night

In my sleep as I dream.

I imagine you closer,

And I pray that you know,

God, how I miss you

And that you had to go.

Each day you are longed for

For my heart, you’re the key

I want just one more minute

Where you used to be.

In my heart I will hold you

This to you, I do vow

From the place that you once were,

To the place you are now.


Photo courtesy of Keith Foster

 

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About the Author
Stephanie is originally from Long Island, NY. At age 15 she met her soulmate Pete. After several years as a couple, God had other plans and the two parted ways. Both went on to have other relationships and children. 20 years later Pete took a chance and called Stephanie's parents home. The two got back together and married in 2005. Stephanie experienced the sudden death of her father in 2005. Stephanie was with her Mom when she was called to heaven in 2010. Pete who had Multiple Sclerosis required more and more care. Hospice eventually was brought into their home. Pete grew weaker and weaker. Stephanie, her son and Pete's family tried to make him as comfortable as possible. Stephanie and Pete both believed it was destiny that brought them back together and there was a reason for it. In 2012 Stephanie's sister passed suddenly. 5 months later, Pete was taken home to Heaven. Stephanie has a unique, honest and raw relationship with grief. Her writings make you feel the emotions she describes. Her works have brought tears and belly laughs to some readers. Stephanie treks her journey up "Grief Mountian" with memories, insights and words of hope. Her Facebook page is Grief 4 Dummies.
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