Absence (reflection from a broken heart)

I thought we would have

More time than we did

You should be here with me

That's how it should be

But every day

I have to live with how it is

Living without you

Is the hardest thing

I have ever had to do

I feel like I am holding my breath

Because I'm scared all the time

Ever since I lost you

I don't know who I am anymore

You were my everything

My sun and my moon

I don't want to be broken

But I don't know how to be whole

The very core of me

Has been ripped away

What do you do

When the love of your life dies?

Everywhere I go

You should be there

I look around and think

Can't anyone see me

Dying inside?

I go through the motions

Of living this life

Hoping one day

I won't feel so destroyed

But all I feel is left behind

And forced to face life

With you no longer here

I'm tired of life being this hard

All I want to do

Is crawl up into your blanket

And let the world melt away

Sometimes I wonder

Will this be the thing that breaks me?

Will your death be my undoing?

I don't want

My strength to turn to stone

I don't want

For you to be gone

I want you here in my arms

The moment I saw you

I knew you would change me

Forever

But I didn't think

It would be like this

You may be absent

From this world

But you will always be

The center of my heart

I love you

No matter if I live

Another 50 years

Nothing will erase

The memory of you