Been a year

Its been a year now/a year of a long  gloomy hovering cloud/daughters doing well getting smarter you'd be so proud/thanksgiving didn't feel right/felt like you should of been right by our side/worlds moving fast/but i wish that last minute didn't go so fast/i still see you standing where you would of stood/its a dark gloomy Christmas this year in our hood/wish i would of  noticed and reached out my hand like a brother should/now gotta protect what we have left/swear i didn't realize this till your death/still hear your voice suck it up butter cup well dam jess/but this one this one  isn't as easy/I'd give my life so your girls still have a mother believe me/all though it will always hurt man lessons were learned/dozens of peoples hearts left burnt/yet this hell we call earth just turns and turns  Love you big sis always in my heart and thoughts