I Miss Your Beautiful Smile
I miss your beautiful smile,
The one that lights the room,
That twinkle in your eyes,
That melts our hearts,
And makes the girls swoon.
Your gone too soon,
The candle still burns,
A flicker of light,
Is left undisturbed.
Peace be with you,
And us below,
A Place
Coming to a place
Filled with love and life
Echoes fill my head
The light is brilliantly bright
Surrounded by my loves
Gives me peace of mind
But recovery is treacherous
And bleeds my soul, I find
Whirlwind appointments
Leave their marks on me
The clutches of disappointments
The Blank Pages
The reality sets in as you stare out a frosted window pane. Drifting snow up to the roofs of the cars in the parking lot. It's December 2014 and all you can think of this night is suicide.
- This is not written from a prescriptive pedestal, but from personal, recent experience
Make no mistake grief is a package deal. Along with the obvious: the loss of your loved one – you will face a host of other unanticipated and sometimes, soul and life-changing challenges that further cripple you. As if the loss event is not enough!
How are the windows darker now. I have lost my love. Our Spring has turned to frozen, cracked, patches of bare ground. Gone is the green grass. No flower grows on this hill anymore, for you have gone. There is a glimmer of a candle that I see. Brighter now, flickering. Shadows of who we were, in photographs and memories.
You have been gone about 6 weeks. Your clothes are in the closet. I sleep under your blankets, I wear your clothes. I am rummaging through boxes of stuff that does not matter, but I can't throw anything away. I am clinging to your things, trying to hold on to pieces of you. Am I insane? Why do I want your old box of wooden dominoes that's missing two?
Physically, it’s hard to imagine being able to survive with half a heart.
Emotionally, that’s what loss feels like.
Gone, Just Like That
By Maryanne Pope Submitted On March 15, 2016
When we first met,
I did not know,
That you would come,
And how fast you'd go!
I did not know,
That in the end,
I would have to lose,
Such a real good friend!
I did not know,
It would hurt this much,
To be without you,
And your loving touch!
You left me here,
I have always wanted to be a mother and encourage our children to be honest, caring, empathetic and great communicators. All the parenting books never prepared me to help my three children grieve the unexpected loss of their father. His death was a shock- all three children helped thousands of searchers try find our Travis.
