Then kiss me goodnight | The Grief Toolbox

In Memory Of My Son Alfie James Jackson - Stillborn - 19/10/2011

My Beautiful angel, I cannot see,
Your wings are filled with love from daddy and me,
This story is yours, how you came to be,
Our precious prince, Destined to fly so charmingly,

First we found each other,
I remember the butterflies,
Then you came and danced in mummy,
I Sang to you lullabies.

We hoped and we dreamed,
We made lots of plans,
I was going to take you on trips,
We’d have stayed in caravans.

But all our dreams were washed away,
The nurse came and told us,
You just couldn’t stay,
It broke our hearts, this night was endless.

But then you came,
I held you in my arms,
I grew angry at myself,
I was just too calm.

Perfect you were,
With your all your fingers and toes,
Sleeping eyes,
And a perfect button nose.

Now you’re my angel
You wear magnificent wings,
I feel them when you hold me,
Then kiss me goodnight.

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About the Author

I am Deborah-Lee and my alter-ego Mummy bumble was created through grief for a very much loved and wanted little boy ~ Alfie James Jackson ~ who was born sleeping on 19th october 2011.I called him my little bumblebee making me his mummy bumble. I wanted to help others that have had to experience the devatasting reality of a child dying noone will ever truly understand the pain felt inside until they feel it themselves. I am a member of my local SANDS group (SANDS the stillbirth and neonatal death society) and have recently become a SANDS befriender. so that i might help other families to grieve for their child(ren). I write poems ~ i found it helped me to channel my grieve in a positive way and i see it has kind of become Alfie James’s legacy. I will always speak of my little bumblebee among the stars and i hope that others will come to find comfort here.

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