"It's good to see you smile again!" she said,
"I knew that after some time, you would get over her."
she was standing a little too close and my smile disappeared
that and the look on my face made her aware of her error.
"I didn't mean it that way!" she started,
"It's just that it's been over two years, and we miss you."
she smiled sweetly,
as if her smile would mask the ignorance.
Look,
I know It's not her fault,
those who've never lost a spouse...
have no frame of reference.
and thinking they should say something
leaves them at a loss
We've heard them all anyway,
some of the remarks are thoughtless and cutting,
but I suspect at least some of the problem is ours
we're hyper sensitive now
and always looking inward
after having been injured to the core
I can only speak for me,
but I found anger to be a diversion from the pain
and did so for months
but today I thought to let her off the hook
"It's OK"
I said, "I'm just a little slow today."
she was a very good friend to my wife after all.
I just wish she didn't smell so good.
the confusion of so many thoughts and emotions
all happening at once
still surprise me
it didn't used to be this way
but she's right
I miss me too