Love lives on with pain

There is an old saying "Death ends a life, not a relationship".  I would like to rephrase that:

"Death DID NOT end your life, and it DID NOT end our relationship."

You are not dead - you are alive in another dimension, in God's presence, awaiting our reunion. And my love for you continues on, deepening every day. It lives and grows alongside the ever-deepening pain of our separation. Love continues to grow, the heartache continues to grow.  The heartache a natural consequence of the love that now has not outlet - no way to be expressed and released to you. 

There is not enough room in my heart to contain the love I have for you. Love and pain coexist in my heart, struggling against each other, straining for room in the confines of my heart, always threatening to break from its container.  I feel the walls of my heart wrenching, tearing.  I feel the pain with every beat of my heart...  

About the Author
I lost the love of my life tragically and suddenly on 24 April 2014, 22 short months after meeting. He was the centre of my universe - my life. I am forever changed by this loss. I celebrate the day we met and the lifetime of memories we created in our short time together and at the same time mourn the future we will not have - the wedding that will not take place...growing old together. I live for our reunion day in heaven...
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